get the lead out!!

that's what i've gotta do!

first up - there are six days left in this month. how many things that are hanging over me can i get done by halloween night? consider this throwing down the gauntlet!!

crest fallen

only one person - susan asplundh, god bless her - has returned a budgie buck. she included a quote i've never liked, at least until now. it's thoreau's "go confidently in the direction of your dreams ~ live the life you imagine." except for my bacs teaching years, this quote rang hollow for me; my post-teaching dreams were basically flat, unappealing, stunted.

until now. i'm thrilled to my very core that the first returned budgie buck is from an awesomely bold & utterly non-trad woman who is over the top in being the most essentially female female i know. i want to be to non-trad ~ and wildly effective ~ senior services that she is to motherhood ~ making it happen, for everyone's benefit, on my terms. and i now love love love that quote because my dreams are outsized enough to empower beyond the beyond.

yes, i am crest fallen. but i'm also fluffed up that i took the risk of sending the request rather than just sitting on my hands or twiddling my thumbs as leah barrier after leah barrier sprung up between me & my rachel life purpose!

i served my seven years to get my goal, only to find that what i got was the ability to find that goal, to clear out enough gunk out of my head & heart to recognize my life purpose when it came to the well. okay, so it feels like i'm dealing with multiple leahs blocking my path. the fact that i recognize my life purpose is beyond rejoicing. and i will serve those extra seven years to make it mine & they will feel as a single day.

surely the lord is in this place, to have taken me from the first crest-fallen subject line to a recommitted to this present moment & all that follow.

delayed deliveries

heading out this afternoon to FINALLY deliver the major batch of my 2011 "state of the human" update (aka "afterward"). and that's just the beginning. my bold brash ways apparently know no boundaries!!

my last post said it all

"tenderized" ~ that was me, in a very good way, over the weeks that marked the 10th anniversary of mom's bidding us au revoir & her reunion with her o! best beloved. took an unplanned but very wise hiatus between the end of august to mid october. spent those weeks just being, not posting on my blogs, allowing whatever arose to arise without commentary.

good to step back; good to be back.